Tuesday, March 8, 2011
The Most Recent Update
Thursday, March 3, 2011
A Letter to Family and Friends...
In case we missed you by email, we wanted to post the letter we have sent out to prepare all of you who are special to us on what to expect once we come home with our long awaited precious baby girl! Below that is a story that does an excellent job of putting things into perspective on some of the feelings our daughter has probably already experienced and may experience even more intensely upon leaving Ethiopia.
Thank you for your continued love and support! We are so excited for the day when we can "fully share" this little miracle with you!
March 2, 2011
Dear Family & Friends,
After a year and a half of waiting, our precious Selah "G" is almost finally home! We know that each of you receiving this letter has, in some way, supported, loved and prayed for us. Because we know your care for Selah and our family, we want to share with you some information that we hope will best equip everyone around her to assist us in laying the strongest and healthiest foundation - emotionally, physically and spiritually.
In many ways, Selah will be like the children who entered our family through birth; we will parent like other Christian families as we bring all of them up in the instruction and discipline of the Lord. But there will be a few, initial differences. For over a year now, we have researched bonding and attachment in children, especially those coming home through adoption from an institutional orphanage setting.
We are confident of this: God's design is PERFECT! His plan for parents and children is a beautiful and meaningful picture of His love for us. Attachment between a parent and child occurs over time when a baby has a physical or emotional need and communicates that need. The primary caretaker (usually mommy) meets the need and soothes the child. This repeats between a parent and child over and over to create trust within the child for that parent; the baby is hungry, cries in distress, mom feeds and calms the baby - which teaches her that this person is safe and can be trusted. By God's very design, an emotional foundation is laid in the tiniest of babies, which will affect their learning, conscience, growth and future relationships. The security provided by parents will, ultimately, give children a trust for and empathy towards others.
Children who come home through adoption have experienced interruptions in this typical attachment process. The loss of a biological mother at an early age can be a major trauma on their little hearts. The good news is that we can now, as Selah's parents and forever family, rebuild attachment and help her heal from these emotional wounds. When Selah comes home, she will be overwhelmed. Everything around her will be new and she will need to learn not just about her new environment, but also about love and family. She has not experienced God's design for a family in an orphanage setting. The best way for us to form a parent/child bond is to initially be the only ones to hold, snuggle, instruct, soothe and feed her. As this repeats between us, she will be able to learn that parents are safe to trust and to love deeply. We are, essentially, recreating the newborn/parent connection. Once Selah starts to establish this important bond, she will then be able to branch out to other, healthy relationships, and we will definitely let you know when we feel she’s ready for this!
Selah will have, what may seem like, a lot of structure, boundaries and close proximity to us. Please know that these decisions are prayerfully and thoughtfully made choices based on immense amounts of research and instruction from trusted adoption mentors. We will be doing what we believe is best to help her heal from those interruptions in attachment as effectively as possible. If we seem overly focused on this topic, we are: this is too important to not be intentional about it. Children who fail to establish a healthy bond with their parents may suffer the rest of their lives with Reactive Attachment Disorder, which causes severe interpersonal and behavioral difficulties into adulthood. While we want to let you hold and closely interact with our daughter (especially since so many of you have been so involved and supportive throughout the process), the risk is too great these first few months, and the potential consequences too devastating. We hope that you will understand and support us in making these tough choices for her long-term well being.
Why are we telling you all of this? Because you will actually play an awesome and vital role in helping our little Selah settle in, heal, and lay a foundation for the future. There are a few areas in which you can help us:
The first is to set physical boundaries. It will help us immensely if adults limit what is typically considered normal, physical contact with Selah. This will (for a while) include things like holding, excessive hugging and kissing. Children from orphanage settings are prone to attach too easily to anyone and everyone - which hinders the important, primary relationship with parents. Waving, or blowing kisses are perfectly appropriate and welcomed! Selah should know that the people with whom she interacts are our trusted friends.
Another area is redirecting Selah's desire to have her physical and emotional needs met by anyone (including strangers) to having us meet them. Orphans often have so many caretakers that they, as a survival mechanism, become overly charming toward all adults. A child struggling to learn to attach may exhibit indiscriminate affection with people outside of their family unit. It may appear harmless and as if they are "very friendly" but this is actually quite dangerous for the child. To share this is difficult for us because we have snuggled, cared for, fed and loved so many of your children.
Please understand that we want nothing more than to have Selah hugged, cuddled and cherished by ALL of you (she's totally irresistible and huggable). But until she has a firm understanding of family and primary attachments, we would be so grateful if you direct her to us if you see that she is seeking out food, affection or comfort.
So what will this all look like exactly? We don’t know all the answers to that yet. But we do know that we will be entering a “cocooning phase” right after her arrival home. We welcome you to greet us at the airport if you would like to see her in person briefly before we head home, but after this, we may be out of the picture for awhile! We will largely stay at home as a family (other than for daily necessities). We will also be limiting the number and length of visits from those outside of our immediate family. These measures are all being taken in the best interest of Selah in order to accomplish what we talked about a little earlier.
Please know that is it just as, if not more difficult for us to put these boundaries in place as it may be for you to abide by them. We want to share this precious little girl with you so badly just as we would share a baby we welcomed into our family by birth. But because we know we only have one chance to “get this right” in terms of her bonding, we ask that you be patient with us during this initial phase of her homecoming to help Selah learn what it means to be part of a family. As we observe her forming appropriate attachments with us and her recognition of us as mommy and daddy, we will gradually be able to expand her horizons and relationships!
We are incredibly blessed to have so many loved ones around us. We couldn't ask for a better extended family & circle of friends for our precious little girl. Thank you so much for your love and support throughout our adoption journey. If you have any questions please feel free to ask at any time! And of course, feel free to continue following our journey on our blog: www.bailyplace.blogspot.com. We’ll do our best to post pictures along the way so you can enjoy meeting this new little one and watch our family grow!
In Him,
Aaron, Susie, Anaiya, Landon, and Selah "G" Bailey
And now...for the story...
Imagine for a moment...
You have met the person you've dreamed about all your life. He has every quality that you desire in a spouse. You plan for the wedding, enjoying every free moment with your fiancée. You love his touch, his smell, the way he looks into your eyes. For the first time in your life, you understand what is meant by "soul mate," for this person understands you in a way that no one else does. Your heart beats in rhythm with his. Your emotions are intimately tied to his every joy, his every sorrow.
The wedding comes. It is a happy celebration, but the best part is that you are finally the wife of this wonderful man. You fall asleep that night, exhausted from the day's events, but relaxed and joyful in the knowledge that you are next to the person who loves you more than anyone in the world…the person who will be with you for the rest of your life.
The next morning you wake up, nestled in your partner's arms. You open your eyes and immediately look for his face.
But IT'S NOT HIM! You are in the arms of another man. You recoil in horror. Who is this man? Where is your beloved?
You ask questions of the new man, but it quickly becomes apparent that he doesn't understand you. You search every room in the house, calling and calling for your husband. The new guy follows you around, trying to hug you, pat you on the back,...even trying to stroke your arm, acting like everything is okay.
But you know that nothing is okay. Your beloved is gone. Where is he? Will he return? When? What has happened to him?
Weeks pass. You cry and cry over the loss of your beloved. Sometimes you ache silently, in shock over what has happened. The new guy tries to comfort you. You appreciate his attempts, but he doesn't speak your language-either verbally or emotionally. He doesn't seem to realize the terrible thing that has happened...that your sweetheart is gone.
You find it difficult to sleep. The new guy tries to comfort you at bedtime with soft words and gentle touches, but you avoid him, preferring to sleep alone, away from him and any intimate words or contact.
Months later, you still ache for your beloved, but gradually you are learning to trust this new guy. He's finally learned that you like your coffee black, not doctored up with cream and sugar. Although you still don't understand his bedtime songs, you like the lilt of his voice and take some comfort in it.
More time passes. One morning, you wake up to find a full suitcase sitting next to the front door. You try to ask him about it, but he just takes you by the hand and leads you to the car. You drive and drive and drive. Nothing is familiar. Where are you? Where is he taking you?
You pull up to a large building. He leads you to an elevator and up to a room filled with people. Many are crying. Some are ecstatic with joy. You are confused. And worried.
The man leads you over to the corner. Another man opens his arms and sweeps you up in an embrace. He rubs your back and kisses your cheeks, obviously thrilled to see you.
You are anything but thrilled to see him. Who in the world is he? Where is your beloved? You reach for the man who brought you, but he just smiles (although he seems to be tearing up, which concerns you), pats you on the back, and puts your hand in the hands of the new guy. The new guy picks up your suitcase and leads you to the door. The familiar face starts openly crying, waving and waving as the elevator doors close on you and the new guy.
The new guy drives you to an airport and you follow him, not knowing what else to do. Sometimes you cry, but then the new guy tries to make you smile, so you grin back, wanting to "get along." You board a plane. The flight is long. You sleep a lot, wanting to mentally escape from the situation.
Hours later, the plane touches down. The new guy is very excited and leads you into the airport where dozens of people are there to greet you. Light bulbs flash as your photo is taken again and again. The new guy takes you to another guy who hugs you. Who is this one? You smile at him. Then you are taken to another man who pats your back and kisses your cheek. Then yet another fellow gives you a big hug and messes your hair.
Finally, someone (which guy is this?) pulls you into his arms with the biggest hug you've ever had. He kisses you all over your cheeks and croons to you in some language you've never heard before.
He leads you to a car and drives you to another location. Everything here looks different. The climate is not what you're used to. The smells are strange. Nothing tastes familiar, except for the black coffee. You wonder if someone told him that you like your coffee black.
You find it nearly impossible to sleep. Sometimes you lie in bed for hours, staring into the blackness, furious with your husband for leaving you, yet aching from the loss. The new guy checks on you. He seems concerned and tries to comfort you with soft words and a mug of warm milk. You turn away, pretending to go to asleep.
People come to the house. You can feel the anxiety start to bubble over as you look into the faces of all the new people. You tightly grasp the new guy's hand. He pulls you closer. People smile and nudge one other, marveling at how quickly you've fallen in love. Strangers reach for you, wanting to be a part of the happiness.
Each time a man hugs you, you wonder if he will be the one to take you away. Just in case, you keep your suitcase packed and ready. Although the man at this house is nice and you're hanging on for dear life, you've learned from experience that men come and go, so you just wait in expectation for the next one to come along.
Each morning, the new guy hands you a cup of coffee and looks at you expectantly. A couple of times the pain and anger for your husband is so great that you lash out, sending hot coffee across the room, causing the new guy to yelp in pain. He just looks at you, bewildered. But most of the time you calmly take the cup. You give him a smile. And wait. And wait. And wait.
--Written by Cynthia Hockman-Chupp, analogy courtesy of Dr. Kali Miller
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
One Step Closer!
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
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Friday, February 4, 2011
Travel: Did You Say Snowstorm?!
This past Monday, my mom called me and said, "Did you see the weather?" And I said, Noooo….whyyyy?" And I proceeded to find out that a gigantic winter storm was on its way, headed directly for us, and scheduled to hit the night before and morning of the day we were supposed to leave. Can't tell you how emotional those few days were as all weather reports confirmed this. I was like a pendulum on a clock with my thoughts going between: "God's in control. When we get there, we get there. I'm not going to worry because it's not in my hands." To….. "But this mama is supposed to leave on February 2, and I don't care when on February 2, I'm leaving February 2!" Aaron didn't' like the idea of possibly getting stranded in an airport somewhere when he could just as easily wait in our home. And I on the other hand really didn't care if we got stuck somewhere as long as we "were on our way." So we decided to keep our itinerary the same, and roll with the punches. After a small delay for a later departure, we awoke Wednesday morning (Feb 2) and checked the computer as fast as we could: red….red….red….cancelled….cancelled……and then 2 blocks of blue on time flights. And OURS is one of them! So off we went to the airport, chauffeured by my mom and dad through the snow. We checked in: 5 duffels and bins packed full of donations for the precious kids who call Hannah's Hope home, and our personal belongings in our carryons. As we waited, our flight moved from 3:25 to 3:35, then 4:15, then 4:25, and finally we were boarding. We ended up taking off just after 5:00. As joyful as we were to be in the air, we had a sinking feeling that we would miss our connecting flight in Detroit to Amsterdam. Our feelings were confirmed after running off our plane to the desk. This also meant we would miss our connecting flight to Addis Ababa. We were rebooked onto the later flight into Amsterdam, but as we researched options of when we'd get into Ethiopia, it was looking like it might not be until the 5th. Thanks to Aaron's endurance on the phone with KLM, they were able to form an agreement with Ethiopian airlines to get us into Ethiopia on the morning of the 4th if we were willing to fly through London instead. So of course we took it! Needless to say our travel plans ended up being nothing like we had planned! Instead of flying almost nonstop for 18 hours, we ended up with a nice 8 hour layover in London. We took the underground to Westminster Square, and did a VERY fast walking tour of that area. We were able to see and take pictures of Big Ben, House of Parliament, Buckingham Palace, the Clarence House, and of course the double decker buses! As much as we wanted to do a little more exploring, there was no way we were going to risk missing our flight to Ethiopia, so we headed back to the airport with 4 hours to spare before our flight was to depart. It was a FUN, but tiring day! At 8:25 pm London time, we took off for Ethiopia on a VERY full plane. We were supposed to have had emergency row seats for extra leg room for Aaron, but there obviously was a misunderstanding, and he ended up squished in the middle of a row of 3. We didn't care though: we were finally really on our way to Ethiopia! Day 1: We Met Her! 8 hours of flight time later, and we're finally here! I think we traveled about 36 hours total with about 4 hours of sleep at the most, but we're here! And, yes! We can hardly believe it, but we've met our precious baby girl already. What an incredibly special surprise after a long, long, trip to get here. I'll back up a bit, and then describe our meeting today. We arrived in Ethiopia at 7:00 a.m. their time which is probably when most of you were going to bed last night around 11 pm. We flew in to a beautiful sunrise coming over the countryside. We got off the plane, went through the Visa line with no problems, and then went to claim our luggage. We were relieved that 2 of our bags of donations arrived, but disappointed and concerned that 3 are still not accounted for. As far as we know, they were all on our flight from Detroit to London, but London could not track them since we switched airlines. Their thought is that they will come in with the KLM flight tomorrow that we would have taken if we hadn't been able to get on today's flight. Please PRAY! The 3 that are missing have the most diapers and formula in them. After filing a missing baggage claim and getting through customs, we walked out to find that no one was there to greet us as had been our understanding. Knowing it was very possible that they did not get our updated itinerary, we decided to try to call the Hannah's Hope staff. Realizing we needed Ethiopian birr (currency) to use their pay phones with no exchange place in site, we went with plan 2. I finally got up the courage to approach another hotel's representative and explain our situation. "No problem! I will assist you!" he said. And he proceeded to use his personal cell phone to call the family coordinator for AGCI. Long story short, he helped us find our hotel's driver OUTSIDE, and we were on our way again. What a blessing he was to us! We arrived at the hotel after a very interesting ride through Addis and were greeted warmly by the staff here. Imagine our surprise when we were given our itinerary and it said that we would be picked up in just an hour and a half to go to Hannah's Hope! We went upstairs, freshened up, and then grabbed a quick bite to eat. "Wass" was the driver who picked us up today and as we told him who our baby was, he said, "Ah yes! "G". She has a beautiful smile!" As we made our way down the bumpy street that led up to Hannah's Hope, it was so surreal: this is the drive I've heard so many other families describe, and finally it was our turn: we pulled up the gate I've seen in so many pictures, and then it opened! We were greeted by smiling faces of toddlers who were playing in the court yard. Almaz (the orphanage's director) came to greet us and brought us to her office to complete some paperwork we'll need on the next trip and to prepare us for what to expect with court next week. And after that, she said, "Let's go meet "G"! We followed her into the "baby" house to find that it was naptime. "G" was sleeping in a bouncer all bundled up when we walked in. Immediately I was filled with love and amazement that this was my daughter! The one I've been praying for before I knew her name and now by name since November. THIS was our gift directly from God! Can I tell you that she is absolutely perfect? She is everything her name says she is: WONDERFUL!! I was able to hold her right away while she was still sleeping and Aaron and I absolutely marveled over her TINY hands and feet, her beautiful eyelashes, the way she kept sucking in her sleep. She has the most delicate features: a tiny little nose and lips. After holding her around a half hour or so, she started to stir and then she woke up in my arms. This I feel was a moment given to me by God: immediately she looked directly in my eyes and smiled! She would look back and forth between Aaron and I and just smiled. It was one of the most precious moments of my life and I will never forget it. Her smile is beautiful, complete with little dimples. The special mothers clearly love her! They told us today that "G" is very content: she typically only cries when she is hungry or tired. And we found this to be true today. After we had played with her a little while, she started fussing and I was able to give her a bottle which calmed her immediately. We played a little longer just enjoying holding her, talking to her, and doing the same with some of the other babies in the room. I could tell she was getting tired, so I started to walk around with her and sway with her while I sang "Jesus Loves Me." She settled down quickly and fell asleep in my arms. Precious. Not long after, our driver came to bring us back to the hotel, and so I had to say goodbye for the day. Oh how I wanted to stay! As I laid her down in a Moses basket, she awoke and gave me the same precious little grin, looking right into my eyes. Thank you God for an absolutely perfect first day with my little girl. She's got Aaron around her little finger already! I am so excited to go back tomorrow and just continue to learn more about who she is! We will keep you posted as we are able: tomorrow we get another morning with her, and then because it's the weekend, Hannah's Hope doesn't have the capability to drive us back in the afternoon, so we are taking a short tour a little North of Addis Ababa to the Debrelibanos Monastery region.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
We're in London!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
We're leaving on a jet plane...
We’re leaving on a jet plane…but we know when we’ll be back again!
Februrary 2-11 will be our travel dates for this first trip to Ethiopia.
Can you believe that 1 week from today, we are off to Ethiopia? We can’t believe we’re this close to meeting our precious baby girl! We cannot wait to kiss those beautiful brown cheeks and look into those equally beautiful brown eyes! Please pray for our trip. Below is a list of specific things we would appreciate prayers for!
1. Continued health and strength for "G" and all the children at Hannah's Hope.
2. Our court and embassy dates to remain constant-for no last minute changes.
3. That our daughter's birth mother will be healthy and available to travel on our assigned court date, and that we will be able to meet her that day.
4. That every single piece of information and every person involved will be present on our assigned court date.
5. No delays in our passing court or being assigned an Embassy date.
6. Peace for the judge and all officials involved in knowing the details of "G"'s case.
7. Smooth and uneventful travel.
8. Peace and comfort for our bio kids as they remain at home and have some huge changes coming up.
9. Quick assignment of our embassy date and for "G" to come home in God's perfect time.
10. Anything else you can think of that I missed!
We are so excited to bringing at least 4 fifty pound tubs of donations with us to Hannah’s Hope—full of diapers, more diapers, formula, more formula, medicine, clothing, shoes, and more! Thank you for your generosity and heart for the orphan!
Blessings to you all! We’ll try to keep our blog updated when we’re in Ethiopia, but if our schedule is as busy as most people say it will be, the details may have to wait until we’re back in the U.S. But feel free to check back anyway just in case!
In Him,
Aaron and Susie